I think I went a little stir crazy this week. Monday was a pupil free day for all three kids. I had to work. They slept in, watched videos, fought amoungst themselves, ate, fought, rode their bikes, ate, and then retired to their rooms to read books.
Tuesday – you beaut! Back to school. Only, the older two were unwell. Only Master 7 went to school, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday… so by Friday I was ready to pop. Off to school they all went, returned to health by their dear mother’s superior nursing skills and empathy (not).
I think the real reasons they were happy to go back to school yesterday were a) to get away from an increasingly unstable mother, combined with b) a school dance and horse riding they really wanted to go to this weekend (respectively) and c) the need to get out of each others sight for a few hours.
Oh, and did I mention a husband who had a week from the dark side as well?
So yesterday I allowed myself to be totally human, to ‘be’ for a while. I let go (even though it hurt a little – there was a definite tug there) of all the ‘shoulds’, including the should do groceries so there is some food in the house. I got in my car after the school dash and went.
I visited with my dear friend L, whose new house I had not yet seen. And we chatted, then wandered down to Oxford St, Bulimba for a light lunch at Riverbend Books – king prawn skewers with Thai rice noodle salad and a glass of really nice Riesling. Bliss.
I was a little late picking up the kids from school, but they really didnt seem to mind. (or didnt dare mind??)
Last night I played taxi driver to four 15 year old boys going to a school dance… the things you learn! (That is a story for another time). I was late going to bed, but the calm and connection of the day seemed to remain as I collected the sweaty boys at 11:30pm.
Sometimes you just need to give yourself permission to not tackle the endless to-do’s, the should’s, the must’s, and the have to’s. And you may find, after you’ve given yourself permission to do something just for you, that you are a hundred times more productive, and that life doesnt seem like such a hassle any more.